bahaghari

emo

2012-02-06T16:09:00.004+09:00

What is wrong with you, Aleth? You shouldn't have said those things. You were only to invite him to join your snowboarding trip. Not talk about uncertainties and stuff. And now you feel stupid. -_-

2012-01-30T10:51:00.002+09:00

You should not send me a message just to wish me a nice day. You confuse me.

di ka na nasanay

2012-01-09T23:24:00.000+09:00

Stayed at ate Sheen's place last night. Sabi ko kasi gusto ko makasama si ate Cat. Well, it was not exactly a lie. I really do want to spend as much time with ate Cat while she's here in Japan. But the main reason was I didn't want to be alone last night. Pathetic.

Nakakatawa lang kasi pinanood namin yung No Other Woman. Nakakainit ng ulo. Hahahaha. But it was better than spending the night alone.

I need something to do. I could read manga or watch anime but it's turning into addiction already. T_T Maybe I should read books again. I miss reading books. Yeah, that's a nice plan.

last item on my list

2011-12-31T11:44:00.004+09:00

to do on my 23rd year in life is:

15. to watch the last sunset and/or first sunrise of the year!

And I want to go to a temple for the new year countdown. Hehe. Gusto ko masubukan yung sa mga napapanood ko sa Jdoramas at anime e. Hahahah! And I want to wish for a great 2012. :)

Let's do this! Once a year lang ang chance na to. :D

2011-12-06T13:21:00.002+09:00

I had a good day yesterday but it did not end well. And I'm not having the best day of my life today either. Everything's so unstable again. No. I'm unstable. Again.

I need to recover my balance. Soon.

better late than never

2011-11-29T15:03:00.004+09:00

Isang oras akong late kanina. Dalawang phone na nga gamit ko na alarm e. Di ako nagising sa mga mail at text. Nagising lang ako sa ikalimang tawag sakin ni Shie. Sobrang himbing lang ng tulog? Hahaha. OA. Pero pumasok pa rin ako dahil may kailangan ipasa ngayon umaga. At higit sa lahat, sayang ang leave!

Actually nagising ako sa una kong alarm. Tumayo pa nga ako para kunin yung isang phone sa bag para i-snooze. At binuksan ang heater para di ako tamarin tumayo. Pero pagkatapos nun, wala na. Ang 9min snooze (di ko pa rin mawari kung bakit 9min ang snooze time ng alarm. masearch nga mamaya...) ay naging 2hrs & 45min. :))

Anyare?? Di ko na narinig yung mga sunod kong alarm. Di rin ako nagising sa mga tawag. Dahil ba forever naka-silent phone ko? Pero may tunog dapat yung alarm. O baka kasalanan ng heater kung bakit napasarap ang idlip ko? O dahil hindi na naman ako sanay matulog ng maaga? Pero pero pero. Dati naman nagigising ako kahit ganyan ang kondisyon ng mga bagay. :/

Super pagod lang siguro ako. Sa life in general. Chos. Hindi lang talaga ako sanay sa active lifestyle. :)) Simula June, mabibilang lang ata sa mga daliri sa kamay ang mga araw na hindi ako lumabas ng bahay. Kung anu-ano pang pinaggagagawa ko sa buhay ko. Yung tipong nakakaubos ng energy at sunud-sunod pa. Akala ko ata may superpowers ako. Hahahaha.

At sa sobrang bangag ko kaninang umaga, nalimot kong balikan si Shie sa telepono nung kausap ko siya. Muntik nakong mag-toothbrush ng dalawang beses. At habang nakasakay sa tren, sinigurado ko pang hindi ako lumabas ng naka-jogging pants lang. Sinigurado ko rin na meron at tama ang suot kong article of clothing sa bawat parte ng katawan. Hahahaha!

Pagod na ang katawang-lupa ko. Kailangan ko ng isang linggong bakasyon sa isang malayong isla.

2011-11-07T09:48:00.005+09:00

What the hell am I doing? Kung wala lang ako sa work ngayon, naiuntog ko na ang sarili ko sa table. Now if you'll excuse me, I have to go to the restroom and bang my head against a wall.

just keep swimming

2011-10-27T17:44:00.001+09:00

There is only so much you can do and there are things that are just outside your control. But on those areas that you have control over, always give it your best shot. And remember, when you're given the liberty of choice, you're also given the responsibility to choose wisely.

It's like being given a multiple-choice question. If you were to choose what you think is right, use your head. If you have to pick what is best, follow your heart. And if it gets too tough, you can always call a friend. :)

No matter what the result would be, keep moving forward. And take everything you learned with you. It might help you with the next test you have to take. Or when someone needs your help with theirs.

It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
~ J.K. Rowling (Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets)

introduction to manga/anime

2011-09-20T15:26:00.000+09:00

Bago ako magpunta dito sa Japan, wala akong alam na anime maliban sa mga pinalabas sa TV. Hindi rin ako nagbabasa ng manga. Ang napanood (as in minarathon at pinagpuyatan) ko lang na animation series ay ang Avatar: The Last Airbender (na pinanood ko pa ulit ng buo pagdating ko dito. hihihi). Tapos hindi pa yan Japanese anime so hindi masyado counted. Pero unti-unti na tong nagbabago.

Isa ang Naruto sa mga anime na pinalabas sa TV na naging interesado ako kahit nabibilang lang sa daliri ng mga kamay ang napanood kong episodes. :)) Hindi ko kasi naaabutan yung palabas tsaka kahit gusto kong panoorin, tinatamad akong maghanap. Hehe. Inggit nga ako noon kay kuya Noel na sa tuwing uuwi galing PMA, naka-glue sa harap ng computer at nanonood ng Naruto sa internet. At kay Ajina na binabasa yung manga. Kaso di naman ako makaepal sa kanila kasi ang layo na nila. Pero isang araw, dito sa bansang Hapon, habang nakatunganga sa loob ng bahay, bigla ko nalang naisipan basahin ang Naruto. Intense reading yun. Dahil nung nagsimula akong magbasa, meron nang 300+ chapters. Ito lang ang ginagawa ko forever pag nasa bahay ako. Actually kahit nasa labas pala (habang nakatayo, nakaupo, o naglalakad) kasi nagbabasa naman ako kay Yuki, the iPhone. :))

At pagkatapos kong basahin ang manga, sinimulan ko nang panoorin ang anime! Hahaha! Super marathon to, may mga pagkakataon ata na inabutan nako ng sikat ng araw sa panonood. Pati nga fillers (episodes na di kasama sa manga at walang effect sa storyline) pinanood ko e! I love Naruto so much na isa sa mga pangarap ko ang pumunta sa Fukuoka at kumain sa totoong Ichiraku Ramen (ramen store na favorite kainan ni Naruto). Yes, nag-research galore din ako! :> Super love ko ang Naruto. <3

After niyan binasa at pinanood ko rin ang Hunter x Hunter. Kaso bitin yung anime nito tapos hindi nako natuwa sa takbo ng manga kasi naging dark masyado yung story at sobrang dragging na. :| I love Gon and Killua ang their friendship pa naman. </3 Subukan kong bigyan ulit to ng chance, baka may continuation na yung manga. Haha. Tsaka may bagong anime na ipapalabas!

Binasa at pinanood ko rin yung Fullmetal Alchemist. Ang interesting kasi ng Philosopher's stone e. Pinanood ko both yung Fullmetal Alchemist (altered yung kwento) at yung Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood (based sa manga) na anime. I love this series! Medyo nalungkot nga ako nung natapos ko na e. Pero alam kong doon na talaga nagtatapos ang kwento niya. Huhu. Tsaka pwede naman ulitin. :))

Kung iisipin ko ngayon, parang puro panlalaki pala tong mga to. Hahahaha! At pagkatapos ng onting type sa keyboard at click ng mouse sa tulong ni Google, napag-alaman kong shounen manga pala ang tawag sa genre. One Piece ata pinakasikat ngayon dito. Kaso di ko naman masyadong type base sa mga napanood kong episodes. Siguro subukan ko kung sobrang bored nako. :))

homerun!

2011-08-25T15:13:00.011+09:00

Kuya Julius announced this inspire-me-to-write-a-song "contest" in Facebook. And I joined just for fun. Not really expecting to win since I have not joined a literary contest of any kind in my entire life before this. I don't know where I got the confidence to join when I'm not confident in my skills. Maybe I needed something exciting to spice up my boring existence. Hahaha.

A week later, I got myself landed with 2 baseball game tickets, 2 tickets for free Yomiuri Giants towel, and 2 coupons worth 1000 yen each for restaurants around the area. WOW. But the game was scheduled on a weekday and I have work so I had to give the tickets to someone else. I read in Google+ that Alvin (the crush hehe) was planning to join the said contest because he wanted to watch a live baseball game. So I offered him the tickets. But because of some weird turn of events, we ended up watching the game together.

At first I was very kilig and excited. And then comes the anxiety. And then the pressure. It was his birthday and I don't want to end up ruining his day, you know. But it turned out quite well. It was actually fun and there were no awkward moments. :) In fact, I was having too much fun and was being myself a little bit too much that I forgot to act cute or girly or whatever it is that girls do when they're with the boy they like. Or maybe I just don't know how. Hahahaha.

If we were dating, it would have been perfect with all its imperfections. But surprisingly, I'm glad that we're not. It was fun but I was quite relieved that it's not more than that. I'm happy! But more than happy, I'm contented. It feels like the balance has been restored to my world. :)

will the pain ever go away?

2011-08-19T10:04:00.003+09:00

The emotional pain, I mean. It's not like some scratch on the knee that once the skin has repaired itself, the pain will be all gone. I think it's something that you learn how to deal with. Something that you learn how to live with everyday. Like learning how to ride a bicycle. Once you get the hang of it, you'll know how to handle it every time.

It is already a part of you. It is the result of your past experiences, unmet expectations, abrupt changes, adaptation to the future that is totally different from the one you prepared for. It is deeply engraved in your memory cells.

People deal with pain in different ways.

1. Cutting all connections. This is not an option for me. We have so many common friends and acquaintances. I don't want to put everyone in a tight spot.

2. Being indifferent. Can you really be indifferent toward someone who's been special to you? Well, I can't.

3. Avoiding. To meet in person and as a topic of conversation. This would just lead to awkward situations. If it were just me then it would be fine. But it would also affect all those people around me. ご迷惑をかけたくないし。

4. Hating. I've read about people who chose this path. I've seen them in movies and shows. I even met some of them in real life. I don't want to be like them.

So what is there for me to do? What am I doing right now? I'm not really sure. This path has no clear trail. And there's not much sign to point me to the right direction. This may be the road less traveled but I choose to go this way.

kamatis

2011-08-12T12:14:00.003+09:00

Habang naglalakad kami sa eki ni Shie kagabi, may nadaanan kaming store ng shirts. Tapos may nakadisplay na watermelon shirt. Ang cute! Gusto ko sana tingnan kaso tinamad ako. Anyway, habang palabas ng pinto tinanong ko si Shie, "pinangarap mo bang maging pakwan?" (Okay Aleth, saan to galing? Hahaha. Weird mo rin minsan e no.) Natawa lang siya (ako rin naman natawa hahaha) at sinabi niyang hindi niya yun pinangarap.

Dahil dun, tinanong ko siya na kalevel ng mga tanong sa Ms. Universe: "Kung prutas ka, anong gusto mong maging?" Hindi raw niya ginusto maging prutas. Hindi raw niya maimagine na, kunwari, banana sya. Hahahaha. Kaya sarili ko nalang tinanong ko. Ang sinuggest ni Shie, strawberry raw. Pero ayoko maging strawberry. Naisip ko gusto ko maging peach. Ang cute kasi ng shape niya at ng kulay at gusto ko rin texture niya. :) Pero ayos lang din sakin maging pakwan. Ang saya kasi ng kulay niya e. :D (Gusto ko na tuloy balikan yung shirt na nakita namin.)

Pagkatapos niyan, nagmove on na kami sa next topic. Kung gulay ako, anong gusto kong maging. (Ayaw ni Shie maging prutas o gulay e, kaya ako nalang. Hahaha.) Ang una kong naisip gusto ko maging okra. Nakakatuwa yung shape niya e. Parang ang elegant. (Ano raw??) Tapos pag hiniwa mo crosswise, parang star! :D Pero hindi ako masyadong satisfied sa okra, di tulad ng peach at pakwan. Kaya nag-isip ako ng second choice. Ang naisip ko gusto kong maging kamatis. Yung matabang pandak. Yung nasa mga drawing haha.

Medyo nahirapan ako mag-isip sa gulay. Narealize kong mas gusto kong maging prutas kaysa gulay. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ko gusto maging kamatis na nakikita sa label ng mga tomato sauce at ketchup. Siguro meron lang talagang mga bagay na sigurado kang gusto mo kahit hindi mo sigurado kung bakit. Parang pag-ibig. HAHAHAHAHA. Lahat nalang parang love!

Okay, wala nang sense ang entry na to. Ay, wala pala syang sense mula simula. Sana nandun pa yung shirt at sana mura lang. Hihi.

salamat

2011-08-10T23:07:00.002+09:00

Sa oras, atensyon, at pagmamahal
Sa pinagsamahan nating kay tagal
Sa mga alaala ng kahapon
Sa ibinigay na pagkakataon

Mga problema nating pinagdaanan
Ni minsa'y hindi ito pinagsisihan
Ang bawat patak ng dumaloy na luha
Ay patunay lamang sa ating pagsinta

Salamat sa kasiyahang idinulot
Pati na rin sa kalungkutan at kirot
Mundo'y patuloy man sa kanyang pag-ikot
Kailanma'y hindi ito malilimot

Kahit landas natin ay naghiwalay na
Pagtingin ay 'di tuluyang mawawala
Ating magkasamang tinahak na daan
Ay nakaukit na sa puso't isipan

Salamat sa iyong pag-unawa
Sa pag-ibig na ipinakita
Sa pagkalinga't pag-aalala
At sa ligayang iyong dinala

hey you!

2011-07-31T21:47:00.007+09:00

Why are you so nice? I know you're nice, but you're too nice! (I used the word 'nice' too many times that it doesn't make sense to me anymore. Haha.) Now everybody likes you (and they like you for me). And knowing that they're so supportive (and serious) about this kind of things, they would do something about it. Normally it wouldn't really bother me and just play along for the fun of it. I mean, this is not the first time. But now my resolve is crumbling. I'm torn between wanting to not like you more and wanting you to like me more. It's a good thing that I have four weeks to get myself together before I see you again. Or is it unfortunate that I won't be able to see you for about a month? Tsss.

You're a distraction that I need but not sure that I want. Or is it the other way around? Tsss. Really.

i feel weird

2011-07-22T16:27:00.000+09:00

bow.

I will cross the ocean for you :)

2011-07-14T06:52:00.003+09:00

I'm on my way to the airport right now. I'm in for a most complicated trip. This might even be the most complicated trip of my life. Ever.

I have different roles from the planning stage to the trip proper. From being a main character to being an extra. I may even be a じゃま for all I know.

I just wish to enjoy this trip as much as I can. And not cause any trouble to the others who are with me. I want them to enjoy this trip and enjoy it with me.

Dear God, please give me strength to get through this. Lots and lots of it! I really need it. And courage and wisdom to do the right things. Thank you. :)

can i live without you?

2011-07-12T14:45:00.011+09:00

You said that I can live my life without you. That I managed to live for 17 years before you came along. Of course I can! But you see, it would be like a desert with no oasis. Or rather, losing the oasis I found while wandering through the vast desert.

Yes, I can live without you. But as I told you, the days have already been divided into days before I met you and days after I met you. Going back to the way things used to be when I was 17 is not easy. It's not even possible.

Have you ever experienced that blinding moment when you step indoors after walking under the bright sunlight for a long time? Like all the light has gone out and you can barely see? It's even painful to keep your eyes open. But eventually, your eyes will adjust and you will see everything just perfectly fine again.

What makes the desert more beautiful is that somewhere it hides a well.
~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery (The Little Prince)

01.04.2011

2011-07-11T17:14:00.002+09:00

Naglalakad papuntang tambayan galing sa isawan. Habang nag-uusap at nagtatawanan, naalala ni L na malapit na ang 8th of the month.

L: Gaano na kayo katagal?
A: 4... Forever. *grin*
<tawanan dahil sa kakornihan>
L: Weh? Akala ko mas matagal pa.

Not knowing forever would end soon.

twenty-two

2011-06-22T21:12:00.011+09:00

The very late birthday post 'cause I was busy with you know, stuff. Oh alright, I was lazy and busy. :P

The past year was, hmm.. I don't want to say that it was a bad one, but it was a very hard year for me. There were lots of heartaches, confusions, doubts, and broken hearts. But I learned a lot. I learned a lot of things about myself, about people, about love, and about life in general. And for that I am really very thankful. :)

Birthdays have this special effect on people that makes them think about their life. I've been asking myself the same question every year, on my birthday, ever since I turned 15 (or was it earlier?). I ask myself, "What have I done with my <insert age here> years here on Earth?" The first time, I didn't know how to answer. I wasn't even sure of what I want to do with my life then. But right now, I think I'm a bit closer to realizing my dreams. Or at the very least, I'm now positive with the direction I want to take. :)

I know that we grow older everyday but it's a good thing that birthdays only happen once a year. You don't have to spend each day reflecting on your life. Hehe. It has been my goal to constantly improve my answer on that question. :) I don't want to just get older; I want to be wiser. ;) And speaking of being older, the past years I had this desire to not add a year to my age. You know, that feeling that you want to tell people that you're still young. And days before your birthday you'll insist that you're just this age since your birthday has not come yet. But this year, I started telling people that I'm (turning) 22 even weeks before my birthday that I was sometimes confused with my own age and thought that I'm already 23. Hahahaha! I'm not in any hurry to get older but I think I have come to terms with my age. :)

sanrio puroland

2011-06-09T20:53:00.018+09:00

Went to Sanrio Puroland last Saturday with kuya Eman, Tel, and Lai. Si Jeva lang ang kulang sa kids. Korni niya kasi e. Haha. May 発表 kasi siya, sayang. :( Fun Fun day! :D

Parang ibang world pagpasok! Nakakatawa pa si kuya Eman, ayaw tumuloy dapat kasi namamahalan siya. Tapos pagpasok namin, sabi niya, "balik tayo dito!" Hahahaha. Hindi kasi wide lens ang nadala niya. :P Tapos sobrang natuwa kami sa Boatride! Daig pa namin yung kid na kasabay namin sumakay. :)) Sayang nga di namin naulit e.

Super favorite si Cinnamoroll! Super adorable niya!! <3 Gusto ko sana si Bad Badtz-Maru kaso di namin siya nakita maliban sa parade. :(

for Clowie <3 hehe ako na ang fan! :P

for Chinkee and Majo na alam kong super adik kay Hello Kitty :)

for the sisters :>

A very happy (but sad pocket) day. :) Muntik ko na maging favorite si Hello Kitty! :))

nomikai, karaoke, mail

2011-05-28T22:45:00.005+09:00

Ang tsismoso ng officemates namin. Tinanong ng shachou namin si Shie kahapon sa nomikai kung ano raw meron sa amin ni kuya Gabby. :)) At hindi sya ang unang nagtanong noon, may ibang officemates din na nagtanong na sa kanya at kay ate Sheen dati. Hahahahaha! Sabi ko nga next time, sabihin niya pinipilit na namin magkaroon ng something pero wala talaga! :))

Hindi ito ang first time na napagkamalan akong girlfriend ng someone. Napagkamalan na rin akong girlfriend ni Cris, Jonnel, at Dean. Girlfriend material siguro ako. Chos! Feelingera lang? Hahaha.

At bumisita ulit si rockstar kuya Ed dito sa Japan. Kaya naman nagkaraoke kami kasi gusto ko sya marinig kumanta! Number one fan ako nun e. :> Nainlove na naman ako sa kanya. <3 Haha. Kung wala lang jowa yun, kinarir ko na yun ng bongga! Kung sakin si kuya Ed at ang boses ni ate Jam, nakow perfect na ang buhay. :)) Pasalamat si Toni two weeks lang dito si kuya Ed kung hindi hehe. Haha joke lang. :)

the love birds

kuya Eman, ate Jam, Shie

fan mode with kuya Ed

Pag-uwi ko after ng aming all-night karaoke, may nakuha akong two personal mails sa aking mailbox. A postcard from Netherlands and early birthday surprise/card/gift from Steph. <3 Kahit antok na antok nako, di ko napigilan buksan at basahin yung mails ko. Will make a separate post for this. :)

listahanssss

2011-05-26T21:00:00.003+09:00

Di ko pa nga tapos yung dalawang listahan ko, binigyan ako ulit ni Steph ng ililista. Gusto niyang pinapahirapan ata ako. :))

10 Things About You People Don't Really Expect
10 Ways to Win Your Heart

Ang hirap nito ha! Di ko alam kung anong ineexpect ng mga tao sakin. Hmmm.. Try ko nga magtanong. At hindi ko alam kung paano ma-win heart ko!

Ang dami ko nang listahan! At least, hindi utang. Hahaha.

dreams, plans, goals II

2011-05-25T21:37:00.004+09:00

Nag-usap na naman kami ng serious ni Dean. We are soooo meant to be! May bago na naman kaming pagkakapartneran sa buhay. :) Partners in dreams in life na talaga kami. ;)

Marami akong gustong gawin sa buhay e. BIG dreams. Sa school kasi, ang pinaka may natutunan ako ay sa GMRC, Values Education, at kwento ng mga teachers. Hahahaha.

Anyway, nakagawa nako ng bagong page para dun sa mga listahan ko. Kulang pa ko ng goals para 23rd year ko. Hirap punuin. >.< Meron pa akong two weeks para kumpletuhin yun! Yung 25TTMMH naman, dadagdagan ko nalang tuwing may maiisip ako. :D

i bought a world map

2011-05-23T20:13:00.005+09:00

I had this random thought the other day -- i want a world map. Kaya ayan! Kaso hapon yung sulat at iba ang orientation ng mapa, nasa gitna ang Japan. At akala ko malaki na yan, maliit pa pala. At ang liit ng wall ko! In the future magkakaroon ako ng malaking wall na may malaking mapa! For the mean time, yan na muna. :) Tapos nilagyan ko ng smiley stickers yung mga napuntahan ko na. Ngayon ko lang talagang narealize na ang laki pala ng mundo. O_O Gusto ko rin the mapa ng Pilipinas! Nagstart nako ng travel fund for next year. :> Yung 500yen coin bank ko, yun nalang ang purpose niya. Hihihi. Excited! :D

25 things that makes me happy

2011-05-23T12:55:00.018+09:00

seeing my family happy
bonding moments with friends
kids -- lalo na pamangkins <3
mickey stuff -- hindi ko alam kung bakit gusto ko si mickey mouse. :)) college lang to nagsimula e. naisip ko nalang bigla na gusto ko si mickey mouse!
colorful things -- i love solid bright colors! yung masakit sa mata! hahaha! pero kung magkakasama yung mga kulay, keri na yung tamed version ng color.
letters/notes -- i used to write random notes para sa mga tao nung highschool. will try to do that again. :)
handmade gifts
books -- mahilig ako magbasa basta yung hindi required! :P mula sa vandals sa dingding hanggang sa nutrition facts sa likod ng plastic ng chips.
chocolates -- mas okay kung dark chocolate. or yung may mint. or pinaka okay kung both!
surprises -- mas gusto kong kasali ako sa mangsusurprise :D
elderly couples
accomplishing something
when someone tells me that i gained weight!
discovering/rediscovering things
being able to remember something -- perks of being forgetful. hahahaha
... (work in progress :p)

dahil bored ako, ito gagawa nalang ako ng list na sinuggest ni pepoy. ang hirap punuin. >.< meron pang lists of goals for the year, next five years, next 10 years. pero dahil late nako nagstart ng list. ang point of reference ko nalang sa goals ay yung birthday ko. hihihi. i will make a new page for the lists pag may ilalagay nako. :D

i was once lost

2011-05-19T19:36:00.019+09:00

What if I was too young then?

What if it happened too fast?

What if I'm missing out on a lot of things?

What if there's someone better?

What if...

I had so many questions inside my head. Most of the time I was in there. And it went on for quite some time. On and off. It took a few months. But then I realized and remembered things.

People say that you have to grab every opportunity that comes your way. That way, you won't have any regrets. I used to think they were right. But there are opportunities that you've got to miss because of the ones you chose. But there are also those that you just have to let pass. For the regrets part, you must learn how to live with your decisions. You were the one who made them after all and you surely had your reasons. And there's always someone better out there. Always.

Maybe the reason I had all these questions is because I have forgotten. Sometimes we get so used to things that we forget their meaning. We forget why they were there, how they got there. Why did we want them in the first place? Not unlike when you say a word so many times and it just doesn't make sense anymore. Or when you stare at a word for a long time and you think that there's something wrong with its spelling.

You have to remember why you're there, how you got there. Sometimes you have to remember as far as the beginning. In my case, I even remembered before it began. I forgot the things I told myself before I took on the journey. I forgot why I allowed myself to go. I forgot how I managed to convince myself. I forgot the preparations I made. I forgot the promises I made myself.

I think I've read this article before all these things happened. And I think this article even helped my sister so it could have helped me. But as I said, I forgot. According to this article it's not about finding the right person but learning to love the person you found. But I say, it is about finding the right person AND learning to love the one you found.

I forgot a lot of things. But I'm just glad that I found my way back home.

crybaby

2011-05-16T21:44:00.004+09:00

Napakaiyakin ko. :| Here are two of the things that made me cry tonight:

1. Definitely, Maybe. Yes, the movie. And the thing is, napanood ko na yun dati pa. Pero naiyak pa rin ako. I have yet to see a movie about love na hindi ako maiiyak.

2. Pahiyas festival. Kita ko pics nina ate e. Inggit ako sobra. Ang dami kong namimiss dahil andito ako. I would gladly trade my Hawaii trip for that Pahiyas experience with the family. :( December 2012, bakit ang layo-layo mo pa? Haayyy.

Ballad of a Mother's Heart

2011-05-08T21:01:00.012+09:00

by Jose La Villa Tierra

The night was dark,

For the moon was young,
And the Stars were asleep and rare,
The clouds were thick,
Yet Youth went out,
To see his Maiden fair.

Dear one,
he pleaded as he knelt before her feet in tears.
My love is true,
Why you have kept me waiting all this years?
The maiden looked at him.
Unmoved it seemed,
And whispered low.

Persistent Youth,
You have to prove by deeds,
Your love is true.
"There's not a thing
I would not do for you, Beloved" said he.
"Then, go." said she. "To your mother dear,
And bring her heart to me.

Without another word,
Youth left and went to his mother dear.
He opened her breast and took her heart!
But he did not shed a tear.

Then back to his Maiden fair,
He run unmindful of the rain.
But his feet slipped, And he fell down,
And loud, he groaned with pain!

Still in his hand he held the prize,
That would win his Maiden's hands.
But he thought of his mother dear,
So kind, so sweet, so fond.

And then,
he heard a voice!
Not from his lips,
But all apart!

"Get up" it said.
"Were you hurt,Child?"
It was his mother's heart

********

One of the poems that really touched my heart. I think we read this when I was in grade 5? I can't remember if I cried or not. Pero malamang oo. Hahaha. At hindi ko na sya nalimot mula noon.

I'm not really the perfect daughter. Naging pasaway rin akong bata pero I think ngayon, mabait naman na ako. :) Hehe. I superduper love my mommy. Dati nahihiya pa ako sabihin yun sa kanya, pero ngayon hindi na. :) Nakakalungkot lang na wala ako doon para personally siya batiin. Kaya inutusan ko kapatid ko na bumili ng bulaklak para sa kanya para naman kahit papaano may nagawa ako kahit na malayo ako. ;)

ate and mommy with their bouquet of flowers

Sabi ng mommy ko, ang arte ko raw kasi pinadalhan ko pa sila ng bulaklak. If I know, kinilig naman sya! Hahahaha! Tapos sabi ko ibalik nalang niya kung ayaw niya o kaya itanim niya. Haha tapos sabi niya hindi raw. Tapos tawa siya ng tawa! :))

Tapos binigyan din namin yung mga mommies namin sa church ng bulaklak. :)

I love mothers! At feeling ko talaga meron akong motherly instinct. Haha chos. Pero seryoso ako. -_- I love kids, at parang anak ko na yung pamangkins ko. At may moments sa buhay ko na naisip kong gusto ko mabuntis. Hahahahahaha. Hindi nung mismong moments na yun ha. Pero I think it's a wonderful experience, a wonderful feeling, yung may life na nabubuo within you. Naimagine ko na rin sarili ko na nagpapalaki ng anak. I would spoil them and be strict at the same time and they would grow up beautifully. Pero I have long given up on that dream. I'm blabbering already. Okay bye!

sound of silence

2011-05-05T14:30:00.002+09:00

Can you hear the sound of a breaking heart?
It's the sound of tears flowing from your eyes.
The sound of smile when all you want to do is cry.
Memories that have become painted with colors of sadness.
It is the sound of broken promises and of shattered dreams.
A sound so loud it pierces every last bit of your existence.
A sound that nobody else but you can hear.

love

2011-05-03T01:00:00.004+09:00

Do you love someone because that person loves you?

Do you stop loving someone because that person has stopped loving you?

p.s.

2011-05-02T18:27:00.006+09:00

ang galing mo maghanap ng ikasasakit mo. :| kulang pa ba? dagdagan pa natin! tigas ng ulo mo e. konting self-preservation naman dyan. nasan ka ba nung namigay nito? tapos nung namigay ng konsensya nanguna ka sa pila. gandang kombinasyon! isama mo pa pagkacurious mo.

hay naku

2011-05-02T13:48:00.002+09:00

Aleth, you're so messed up. Why did you have to lose your cool? Kainin ka ngayon ng konsensya mo.

hOOters

2011-04-23T18:34:00.005+09:00

Ate dinner at Hooters last night with kuya Ramil, kuya Gabby, kuya M, ate Sheen and Shie. Gusto ko na to matry nung unang beses ko pa lang mapanood sa TV. One of those many things that I have already forgotten. Hahaha. But I was reminded again last night so I was really excited because I just remembered about it and I would get to try it in just a few hours! Oha. Minsan okay maging makakalimutin. :))

I had a picture with Coco, yung sa tingin namin ay pinaka-hot sa mga waitress at ang bango rin niya! Kaso ang suplada. Tssss. Buti nalang si Mina na assigned sa table namin ay mabait. :)

I had mudslide and three shots of j-something-meister. Parang ganyan. Hahaha. Di ko man lang maalala kung anong ininom ko. :| Since nasa to-do list ko na ang matry na malasing. Kailangan ko na ng practice. Hahaha. Pero minsan lang. :) Nagpalpitate ako after pero di ko alam kung connected ba yun sa alcohol. Malalaman natin next time. :))

Tapos meron kaming freebies dahil dun sa inorder naming test tube shots, yung j-something. :D Grabe nakakabaliw sa lugar na yun. Parang lahat ng tao baliw. Or kami lang yun? Hahahahaha!

P.S.

I saw a rainbow today. :)

dahil kating-kati nako magbasa!

2011-04-21T19:26:00.008+09:00

At dahil na rin wala naman akong ginagawang makabuluhan sa buhay ko. Hahahaha. Kaya ayan pumunta ako ng bookstore at bumili ng libro. At ang kondisyon, hindi dapat love story. :))

Nauwi ako sa Anne of Green Gables kasi gusto ko rin magbasa ng classic book. Hihi. Nasa start palang ako pero super love ko na agad si Anne! It's Anne spelled with an e! From the first scene palang na lumabas siya. Super adorable niya. <3 No wonder Matthew and Marilla decided to adopt her even if she's not a boy. :) Kung gumamit lang ako ng highlighter, malamang highlighted na halos lahat ng lines niya!

Tapos naisipan ko rin na gusto ko magbasa ng medyo pambata na book, so naghanap ako sa Juveniles section. At bingo! Nakita ko yung Howl's Moving Castle. Hinahanap ko to pero nalimot ko lang na hinahanap ko siya kaya naman para akong naka-jackpot nung nakita ko. Hahahaha! Sulit ang pagiging mukhang tanga at pag-upo ko sa floor habang naghahanap ako ng librong bibilhin. :D

Isa kasi sa favorite Ghibli film ko to e. Kaya nung nalaman kong galing sya sa libro, e automatic na napunta siya sa to-read list ko. Kaso wala talaga ako listahan kaya naman nalilimot ko. :)) Gagawa nga ako pag naalala ko. Hohoho. Goodluck to that! Medyo love story pala to pero keri lang. I crush Howl e. Hihihi.

i want to hug you right now

2011-04-18T10:35:00.002+09:00

i'm sorry that you had to go through that.

i'm sorry that i'm not there. i would take the next flight if i know that it would make you feel all better.

i'm sorry if i don't have the right words to say. (you know that i'm not really good with words.)

i want to hold you in my arms until all the pain fades away. i want to hug you until your heart's smiling again.

grrrr

2011-04-14T16:56:00.003+09:00

i hate not knowing what's happening to you.

i hate being envious of the people around you.

i hate this feeling of helplessness.

i hate feeling this way when i know that i'm not allowed to feel them anymore.

live each day as if it is your last

2011-04-10T23:33:00.005+09:00

people always tell you this.

i suddenly realized that if i were to live each day as if it were my last, then i would have to spend each and every day with you.

SM

2011-04-09T16:57:00.003+09:00

Nag-nomikai kami kagabi. Actually ayaw ko naman talaga pero gusto ko mameet yung mga newcomers. At as if marunong ako tumanggi. :)) Pogi yung isa, si Ando-san. ;)) At hindi siya umiinom, at hindi siya nagyoyosi, at malakas siya kumain, at madaldal siya. O tapos? Wala lang. Hahaha! Mas matanda sila pareho sakin. So ang weird na kouhai ko sila. At malamang weird din para sa kanila na sempai nila ako. Oh wells. Buti nameet ko na sila kasi baka sa June pa ang susunod naming pagkikita. :))

Anyway, nung late na e napunta na naman sa usapan ng SM. Tapos sabi nila mukha raw akong S. Lagi nalang. Kung alam lang nila. Hahahaha. Pero feeling ko nga mas mukha akong S kaysa M. :)) You can't judge a book by it's cover. ;) Haha.

i love you sabado :)

2011-04-02T17:21:00.002+09:00

My passport arrived this morning! Ang bilis! At 10 years ang visa. YAY!! Ito rin ang first time na hindi ako mukhang wanted sa picture. Medyo na lang. Hahaha!

Tapos Skype date nung hapon with bgirls my loves. :) Ang saya lang, ang daming tawa! Kahit na pag inisip ko e wala namang sense yung mga pinag-usapan namin. Hahaha! Namimiss ko na sila ng marami! T_T Looking forward to our next Skype dates. And real dates. :)

Tapos may special participation. Kinabahan ako ng marami. Tapos di ko mapigilan na mapa :) the whole time. Parang tanga lang. :( Hahahaha!

At onga pala, I'm tumblr-ing (o tumbling? haha whichever) na. I'm bored e at ang daming cute stuff. Kailangan kong pigilan sarili ko ng onti. :P

appoved! :D

2011-03-31T20:39:00.007+09:00

My US visa was approved! Yeeeey! Buti naman no. Sayang 12600, effort sa pag-ayos ng requirements, paggising ng maaga, at paglakbay ng malayo kung nagkataon! At ang dami naming kaba kahapon ha. Bawat tunog ng bell(?) para sa susunod na number sumasakit puso ko. Hahaha.

Hindi ko alam na malalaman pala agad yung result. As in right after masagot ko ang last question ni kuya interviewer, sinabi na niya agad na approved yung visa. Nashock ako, feeling ko nag-freeze ako for a few seconds. :)) Gusto ko ngang sabihin na "weh? for real?" Buti nalang napigil ko. Hahahaha!

Hawaii, here we come!!! :D Naexcite tuloy ako bigla! Pero pinipigilan ko. Hahaha. Kailangan muna ng sexy body bago mag-Hawaii! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

some days

2011-03-27T18:58:00.000+09:00

are just harder.

kuwento part 2

2011-03-23T19:19:00.006+09:00

Friday~Saturday

We stayed at ate Sheena's dahil takot kaming mag-isa. Hindi akonakatulog agad nung gabing yun dahil bukod sa aftershocks ay marami pang ibang bagay na tumatakbo sa utak ko. :(

Nanood kami ng John Lloyd movies, I Miss You Like Crazy at My Amnesia Girl para mailayo ang atensyon namin sa nangyayari. The movies were not really good for me pero at least nagawa niyang na maalis sa isip ang nangyari. Nalipat nga lang sa iba ang isip ko. Hahahahaha!

Sunday

Hindi ako nagpanic noong mismong quake. Kalmado lang naman ako. Siguro salamat na rin dahil kausap ko ate ko halos forever. Hindi kami nag-uusap ng seryoso e. Haha. Pero nung Linggo after mass at after kumain, nagkaroon ng sharing. At jusmiyo Marimar, nung ako na, di pa ako nagsisimula e naiyak nako. :| I don't think natrauma ako or whatever. Iyakin lang siguro talaga ako? :P Pero ayoko talaga maiyak kasi di ko alam kung bakit ako naiiyak! Muntanga tuloy yung kwento ko. Habang naiiyak e tumatawa rin. Sobrang comedy tuloy ng kinalabasan. :))))

Days after

Hindi man ako nagpanic e naging paranoid ako. Medyo lang naman. Hehe. Alam mo yung feeling na forever nang gumagalaw? Ganun. Ayaw ko lalo pag matutulog na. Kasi mas nararamdaman ko yung paggalaw pag nakahiga ako. May nights na naiiyak nalang ako kasi ayoko talaga ng feeling. :( Siguro dahil naiyak nako nung Sunday, kaya di nako nahiya sa sarili ko. :))

Nagkaroon ako ng anxiety attacks. Chos! Para tunog sosyal. Hahahaha! Basta may isang gabi (nung Sunday rin ata to) na di ko talaga keri humiga. Naiiyak ako tuwing susubukan kong humiga tas nararamdaman ko ang paggalaw. Kaya nung gabing yun, kumuha nako ng pet bottle, nilagyan ko ng tubig at nilagay ko sa tabi ko. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya para masigurado ko na hindi naman totoong gumagalaw para makalma ako. Nakakatawa pag naiisip ko. Hahahaha. I actually still look at that bottle pag feeling ko gumagalaw. At tnitignan at hinihintay ko siyang magstop (ito ay kung hindi pa ako nakakalabas ng bahay hahahaha) tuwing may totoong quake.

After ng isang malakas na aftershock, nanaginip ako na nagising ako sa panaginip ko kasi lumilindol ng malakas. Inisip ko pang mabuti kung totoo ba siya o panaginip lang! Pero kung sa totoong buhay, sana magising nga ako. Hindi kasi ako nagigising sa lindol e. :\

Dahil kinda napraning ako, onting galaw lang ay napapahinto nako. At hindi nakatutulong na malapit kami sa monorail kasi tuwing dadaan yun tren ay nararamdaman namin ang paggalaw. :| Pati na rin pag nakasakay sa tren tapos biglang may jolt habang umaandar. Jusmiyo. Lahat nalang ng paggalaw pati yung dating normal lang naman sa pakiramdam e nakokonek ko na sa lindol! Praning lang super. Haha.

Pero medyo okay nako ngayon. Haha. Pero parang forever pa ring gumagalaw ang paligid ko. Lalo na pag nasa opisina dahil ang taas namin. Kailangan ko na talaga ng daily dose ng bonamine. :)) At nandito pa rin naman yung bote ng tubig ko in case napapraning ako. :P

kuwento part 1

2011-03-15T16:49:00.006+09:00

Gusto kong ikwento ang nangyari dahil feeling ko maloloka nako. Pero di ko alam kung paano ikukuwento. Subukan ko kayang simulan sa simula no?

Friday

Buti nalang natapos ko na work ko sa client nung Thursday at bumalik na kami sa office nung Friday. Naramdaman namin na lumilindol. Noong una ayos lang kasi hindi naman unusual na lumindol dito so okay lang, tuloy lang sa ginagawa. Pero habang tumatagal lumalakas siya at hindi siya humihinto. Tapos may nalalaglag na na gamit at nagfflicker na yung lights. Dito nagsimulang matakot ako talaga. Di ko alam gagawin ko, hinihintay ko lang kung anong gagawin nila. Nablangko ako e. Basta ang alam ko lang ayaw ko na magstay doon!

Tapos lumabas na yung ibang officemates at yung shachou namin. So kinuha ko phones at wallet ko at sumunod nako. Pero di nga nila alam kung mag-evacuate ba o magstay kasi mas safe daw sa loob ng building kaso nakita namin sa fire exit na lahat ng tao lumalabas na ng building. So sabi ni shachou lalabas na rin kami. At pinaghawak niya ako ng pinto habang sinasabihan yung ibang officemates na hindi pa lumalabas ng office. Tapos bumaba na ibang officemates at sina ate Sheen, kuya Gabby, at Shie habang hawak ko pa rin ang pinto. Huhu gusto ko na kaya bumaba na rin! Buti nalang sinave ako ni Yamamoto sa task na to. Pero di naman ako makababa ng maayos kasi parang jelly ang legs ko. Sobrang nanginginig tuhod ko. Naisip ko talaga na gusto ko magslide nalang pababa kasi parang bawat step bibigay ako e. Tapos nasa 9th floor pa kami. Huhuhuhu.

So nagstay kami sa malapit na maliit na park hanggang sa maging stable. Nakatsinelas lang pala ako nito. Di ko na naisip magsuot ng sapatos e. Di ko na rin naisip magdala ng coat kung hindi pa nila pinaalala na malamig sa labas at pinakuha ko nalang kay ate Sheen yung akin kasi pinaghahawak ako ng pinto diba? Nagstay kami dun ng mga 15 minutes? Di ko sure e, wala nakong sense of time nun. Nung mukhang stable na, nagsibalikan na yung mga tao.

Pero ilang minuto pa lang ang nakalipas pagbalik namin ng office, ay may isang malakas na aftershock. Nakita kong tumatakbo sila so tumakbo na rin ako. Hahaha. Pero di nakakatawa nung mga oras na yun. :| Dun ulit kami sa mini park nagstay. Ayaw ko na talaga bumalik ulit ng office after. Kasi naman no, gugustuhin mo pa ba? Pero pinabalik pa rin kami! Buti nalang wala akong work nung araw na yun kasi hindi ako makaconcentrate sa kahit ano. Pero after a while, pinayagan na rin kaming umuwi.

Peroooooo ayaw ko pa talagang umuwi. Di ko kaya mag-isa sa bahay. Ayaw kong matulog mag-isa kasi grabe ako matulog e. Baka di ako magising pag may nangyari. :-S Kaya sa bahay ni ate Sheen kami nagstay ni Shie kasi sinabihan din siya ng mama niya.

Buti nalang talaga nasa office ako noon at wala sa client dahil di ko alam kung anong gagawin ko at hindi ko alam kung paano ako makakauwi if ever. Naka-heels pa naman ako pag ganun! At buti nalang na-contact ako agad nila sa bahay right after quake. At halos forever kami magkausap kaya hindi ako masyado nagpanic ng moment na yun at nalibang ko rin sarili ko.

Grabe, pag andun ka sa sitwasyon na ganon, kung anu-ano na maiisip mo. Pero I'm really thankful na safe kami.

Praying for continuous safety and strength for those who survived. More strength for those who lost their loved ones, and peace for those who passed away.

********

I will my continue my kuwento later. Hihinga lang ako.

2011-03-10T21:37:00.010+09:00

Ay, parang ayaw ko na pala ng rubber band. JOKE! I would like the same rubber band, please. :)

Found this on tumblr. Original source here. Napapa-tumblr nako. Haha. Actually, nakagawa nako ng account dati pa. But I'm still tamad to use it. :P One of these days. Dami kong oras e. Hahahahuhuhu.

i don't like dreams

2011-03-08T21:40:00.005+09:00

Because I'm weird like that.

It started sometime back in college. Siguro kasi that time, my reality is better than any dream. Chos! Nakakapagod managinip kasi e. If bad dream, it would ruin your sleep and/or make you worry. Pag good dream naman, gusto mo ituloy pero ayaw, tapos habang pinipilit mong maalala, lalo kang walang matandaan. Tapos pagkagising mo, disoriented ka at minsan pagod pa. Kaya naisip ko nalang bigla na ayaw ko na ng dream. Haha. Pag nagising ako at alam kong nanaginip ako, tinatry kong kalimutan agad kaysa itry alalahanin kung anong nangyari.

But you! You make me want to dream again. Just so I could touch your face, hold your hand, and feel your embrace. Even if it's just for a while. Because I know that eventually, I will have to wake up. You have managed to bring down a wall that I have built. Again.

(How do you measure time in a dream, anyway?)

all because i forgot my phone

2011-03-05T20:22:00.012+09:00

I forgot my roaming phone on my desk yesterday. :| It's a good thing someone will be in the office today. So I persuaded my lazy self to get out of the house and retrieve my phone.

It's Shie's birthday and their team had a lunch out. When I went to our office to get my phone, I got invited to join them. We had sushi at an expensive-looking (they have a hotel-like reception area!) sushi-ya. I was so lucky because it was our bosses' treat! :D

After lunch, I did a little shopping (so much for saving). After that, I don't really have anywhere to go and was not in a hurry to get home (it's rare that I'm out on a Saturday, you know). And it was a fine day so just I walked home instead of taking the train. And decided to take a different route than that of the train.

I walked through the park (must go there sometime and bring a book!). Reached a dead end. Got thirsty but there was no vending machine nearby. Noticed that buds are starting to form on trees (spring is almost here! :) ). Walked some more. Stopped for a while near a baseball field to watch some kids train. Finally found a vending machine. Got lost -- found myself walking into the baseball field again (was that a sign?? haha). Was tempted to check my GPS location. But it's all good, got home eventually. :P

It was nice to do something at your own phase. :) Not worrying about catching the next train or waiting for your stop. Just letting your mind wander. Discovering and rediscovering things. Next time (if there would be a next time), I hope I already have a cute little backpack so my shoulders won't hurt.

dreams, plans, goals

2011-03-04T22:12:00.006+09:00

Kausap ko si Dean kanina tapos napag-usapan namin ang mga plano namin sa buhay. Nakakagulat na ngayon lang namin napag-usapan yung tungkol dun. O baka ngayon lang namin napag-usapan ng detailed?

At habang pinag-uusapan namin yung plans namin sa buhay, grabe lang! Sabi nga niya bagay raw kami. Haha. We're so meant to be! Haha. We'll be partners in dreams and plans. ;) Gotta keep my head in the game!

Basta di ko nakikita ang future ko na forever nasa office at nakaharap sa computer buong araw. Ikaw ang nakikita ko sa future ko. <3 Maisingit lang? Haha joke lang. I want to do something good and worthwhile. :) Yung sasaya ang puso ko at ng ibang tao.

And I found out about this online campaign that a friend started. It's called One Kind Mankind. Nice job Micah. :D

the last stop before the last stop

2011-03-01T21:21:00.005+09:00

Some people say that love doesn't last forever.

But I've met other people. And while over the decades their bodies have forgotten the ideas of who they were, their heads remember their hearts.

Maybe they didn't love forever, just a lifetime.

But they still make liars of those people. You and I can make liars of them too.

~iwrotethisforyou

I would very much like to say the last line to you. But now I can't.

did i marry the right person

2011-02-28T19:08:00.005+09:00

Got this from Ria's notes in Facebook. I don't know who wrote this but it's a nice read. Just remembered it right now. And I don't want to forget it so I'm saving it here. :)

********

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?"
I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?"
In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.
EVERY relationship has a cycle . In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse/partner. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit) .

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy . It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies , instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship , but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?"
And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.
This is when marriages or relationship breakdown . People blame their spouse/partner for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage/relationship for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.. Infidelity is the most obvious.
But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, excessive TV, or abusive substances..

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.
You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE/RELATIONSHIP IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression "the labor of love. " Because it takes time, effort, and energy . And most importantly, it takes WISDOM.. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage/relationship work. Sure true love can only happen after you've fallen out of love. When you begin choosing to love, even if you don't feel like doing it ---- that's true love. And that's the foundation of a lasting and strong marriage.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.
It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable. ... you can "make"love .

Love is indeed a "decision".. . Not just a feeling. You'll not just go away with your relationship just because the feeling is gone. In the Bible, love is a command. You make it happen..

Remember this always :

"God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go."

batting center + meet-my-destiny day

2011-02-27T22:12:00.007+09:00

Dahil sporty people kami, nag-batting center kami. Hahahaha. Played 太鼓の達人 (yung Japanese drum chuva) while waiting for Lai and Tel dahil as usual, may problem na naman sa Chuo line. -_- Then batting for an hour siguro yun. Basta two games each. Ang fun fun! At ang galing ko. Feeler. :)) Basta madami ako natamaan AT naka-homerun ako! :D I'm so proud of myself. Hahahaha. Next na ang wall climbing at bungee jumping! :D

At nameet ko na rin sa wakas ang future boyfriend ko! Si future ate Harumi palang kasi ang nameet. Kasi naman, matagal ko na siyang future boyfriend pero ngayon ko lang naman nakita. Hahaha. At infair, pogi nga si Tatsuumi, my future boyfriend. Hihihihi. We will stalk him! Pero mukhang sineseryoso ni Ate Lhen ang mga sinasabi ko. Kawawa naman si Tatsu at pati na rin ako pag nagkataon. :))

At party party after choir practice. :) Happy birthday Jeva at kuya Edcel! :D

fragile things

2011-02-24T22:31:00.005+09:00

Someone asked, "when your heart gets broken into pieces, which piece should you follow?"

I said, "you should pick it all up and try to make it whole again."

No matter how many times your heart gets shattered, you have to bring the pieces back together. It may be scratched. It may have scars. It won't be perfect. But at least it's intact. You need to find the strength to do that, because you can't love someone with your broken heart.

There are so many fragile things, after all. People break so easily, and so do dreams and hearts.

~ Neil Gaiman (Fragile Things)

because i am bored

2011-02-23T21:33:00.008+09:00

Habang pauwi ako bigla ko nalang naisipang dumaan sa bookstore. I miss bookstores and I miss books! Nakakatuwa kasi magtingin sa bookstores ng kung anu-anong bagay. Parang biglang dumadami ang kailangan mong bilhin. :)) Ang sarap tumingin kahit hindi naman bibili. Hahahaha. Pero nadistract ako kanina nung nakita ko yung camera section. Nandun yung gusto kong action sampler! But I must resist. T_T Kailangan munang magamit ko yung mga bagong bili ko. :\

I bought the first three chapters of Naruto! :D Because I love Naruto and I really really need to start studying for the JLPT! Sana magkaroon ako ng patience na basahin to. Huhuhu. Kailangan kong mag-aral magbasa! At vocabs!

At sa pagkakataon na hindi na kaya ng mata at utak kong magbasa ng Hapon, bumili ako ng another book! :)

Excited nakong basahin to lahat. Hihihi.

cooooooool

2011-02-21T21:13:00.005+09:00

Kagabi, nagtingin ako ng twitter profile ng mga tao. Tapos naisipan kong silipin yung akin. At ito ang nakita ko:

Wala cool lang. :) Bakit ba? Hahahaha.

because i miss

2011-02-20T19:06:00.007+09:00

best cure

2011-02-15T21:05:00.005+09:00

Mickey band-aid for my heart. Chos. Ngayon may kasama na ang aking Mickey cotton buds na hindi ko alam kung saan ko na nilagay pero buti nalang nahanap ko. :)

At habang hinahanap ko 'tong cotton buds, may iba akong nakita. I found something that made my heart both happy and sad. Buti nalang may band-aid nako.

happy little things

2011-02-13T21:23:00.016+09:00

going back to our office starting monday :D

I miss my desk. I miss my computer (kailangan na namin magbonding ulit dahil di na kami close huhu). I miss the 10-minute train ride. I miss the short walk to the toilet. I miss having a wide work space. I miss going home early (though wala naman nako gagawin sa bahay haha). I miss my slippers in the office. I miss wearing flat shoes! I miss the pictures on my desk. Ang mamimiss ko lang sa client ay yung food sa caf. But I will not miss the lunch time dahil lagi nalang ako nagmamadali kumain!

Hindi ako dapat gumagastos. Pero ang daling mapilit ng sarili ko today. Huhu. Dapat kasi hindi na dumadaan sa department stores! Pero happy naman ako sa nabili ko. :)

yellow shoesssssss!

Gusto ko talaga magkaroon ng yellow shoes! At naka-sale siya kaya aarte pa ba ako? Hahaha!

mickey bands

Because everybody needs mickey rubber bands! Been wanting to buy this the first time I saw it. Pero ngayon ko lang napilit sarili ko. :))

mickey pen

Para ganahan ako mag-aral! Chos! At may colorful refills para sa pen na to. Must buy that next time. :) Meron ngang mas magandang pen e, collector's chuva. Kaso ang mahal. Huhuhu. Kaya dito nalang ako, makulay pa ang tinta! ;)

random thoughts

2011-02-06T11:25:00.010+09:00

Even if you have decided on something, it doesn't mean that it's going to happen. You have to accept that there are things that are outside your control.

There are times that you will have to stop going against the flow. It doesn't mean that you've given up. But sometimes it is better to just go with the flow and see where it takes you. It might take longer but maybe, just maybe, it would take you to where you long to be.

"I know" is different from "I can". But there are decisions that you've got to make. It won't be easy but you need to find the strength to make that kind of decision. And you would need even more strength to get on with what you've decided.

Even if your world has stopped moving, the world will not stop moving for you. You may wish that you no longer exist. But if you want your world to start moving again, you will have to continue to live. You need to live for that moment. It will be your goal and your inspiration.

dear brain

2011-02-02T21:20:00.009+09:00

please stop thinking about things that make heart hurt.

thank you.

frisson

2011-01-29T01:21:00.003+09:00

i've been experiencing this a lot lately. :)

<3 <3 <3

dahil walang task

2011-01-27T23:36:00.005+09:00

Ang hirap pag walang task. At isang buong araw akong walang task kanina. Wala akong magawa tapos walang internet at bawal naman matulog diba. Bukod dun kailangan kong magmukhang busy kasi kailangan ireport ang ginawa. Pero ang pinakamasaklap dun, madaming oras para lumipad ang utak ko kung saan-saan. Kung anu-ano tuloy naisip ko. :S

Utak naman ang nag-ooverwork pero bakit puso ang apektado. :(

Para akong bipolar. Super happy then super sad. Loop while?? Sana mabreak na yung loop. Kung alam ko lang yung condition e. Jusmiyo Alethea, baliw ka na ata. :| Itulog mo nalang yan. At sana di ka managinip sa kaiisip mo.

smile

2011-01-26T21:22:00.006+09:00

Gusto ko matuto magsmile!!! Hindi ako marunong ngumiti ng maayos e. Tapos I have sad eyebrows, sad eyes, and sad lips pa. Nakakasad. :( Huhuhu.

Gusto ko matuto ngumiti ng maayos. Kahit hindi yung pang-artistang ngiti. Basta mukha lang masaya pwede na! Kasi naman paano kung makasalubong ko si Yamapi o Toma-loves sa next na punta ko sa central Tokyo? O kaya makita ko sa Hawaii (kumuha ka muna kaya ng visa!) si Zac? One time big time lang yun! Kaya dapat perfect ang lahat. :))

Siguro kailangan ko na magpractice magsmile sa harap ng salamin. O kaya dapat maging hobby ko na ang magpicture ng sarili. :P Di kasi ako mahilig magpicture ng sarili o kaya magpapicture mag-isa e. Kaya ayaw kong nagpapakuha ng ID picture. Awkward! Tapos ipapasa pa. T_T Ayoko rin nung tuwing kukuhaan ng picture sa immigration. Weird.

Gusto ko rin matuto magsmile ng di kita ang ngipin. Mas di ako marunong nito. Sadness. Kaya mas lalong ayaw ko magpakuha ng ID picture pag di pwede magsmile. Gusto ko nga palitan yung passport at alien card ko dahil dun e. Nakakairita tignan. Hahahaha.

Pangarap ko rin magkaron ng dimples. :)) Yung tipong onting smile mo lang lalabas na sila. Ang kyot kyot kasi! At gusto ko yung mabilog. Haha choosy pa?

Okay babush, magpractice nako sa harap ng salamin. Chos!

P.S. pang-wacky shot lang ata 'tong mukha ko. :))))

#636

2011-01-25T22:14:00.007+09:00

Super kailangan ko nito ngayon! Dapat ata idikit ko 'to sa noo ko e. Ay, pero di ko pala yun makikita. Pero malay mo pag dinikit ko sa noo ko e maabsorb ng utak ko. :)) Kailangan maging positive! Aja Aleth!

stop overthinking. stop it right now.

2011-01-23T15:14:00.005+09:00

I thought cleaning is supposed to take your mind off of things? It did the opposite for me. :S

And Alethea, for your sanity's sake, please stop doing that! Ang daming pwedeng gawin sa internet yun pa gagawin mo. Panoorin mo nalang yung Thai movie na sinuggest ni Pepoy.

#635

2011-01-23T12:44:00.003+09:00

I already found mine. :)

I want this on my wall! Must print this out. I also want the TWF posters but I'm not supposed to spend on things that I don't really need right now. :( But everybody needs those! Haha. Okay, I have to talk to Aleth about this. For now, I'll add this on my wishlist.

happy heart

2011-01-21T01:20:00.003+09:00

No word/s can express how happy and thankful I am right now. Even a hundred :) is not enough.

Thank You, Lord. :)

malas first day back

2011-01-11T22:04:00.005+09:00

- dalawang phone na ang gamit ko para sa alarm pero di pa rin ako nagising! isang oras tuloy akong late. nakakahiya!
- pumunta akong office para mag-ayos ng timelog at reimbursement ng travel expenses pero nalimot ko pala ang hanko ko na kailangan dun.
- umuwi nung lunch para kunin yung hanko pero pagdating ko sa train station di ko pala dala susi ko. buti nalang di pa ako nakakasakay!
- nagtaxi na pauwi para makaabot sa oras. (thank you manong taxi driver sa paghintay sa akin habang kinukuha ko ang hanko sa bahay! :D) at nung pabalik nako sa taxi at nasa aktong sasakay na ay nadulas ako. tae yan. buti nalang wala masyadong tao dahil tanghali.

buti nalang kahit malas ako today may mga little something to make up for it. pero miss ko na pinas! :( i'll kwento my pinas trip sa weekend. :) at buti nalang tuesday na, tatlong pasok nalang. :)

kanji weirdness

2010-12-14T18:18:00.003+09:00

参照(reference) and 照り焼き(teriyaki) have a common kanji. Weird!

--
Sa twitter ko pala to napost. Naguguluhan nako! Tinatry ko magblog kay yuki kasi e. Haha.

oshinko

2010-12-08T13:22:00.005+09:00

Habang kumakain ng lunch ay nabanggit ang "oshinko" meaning yung pickled stuff na kinakain nila pangtanggal ng umay ata. At naisipan kong isearch ang kanyang kanji.

お新香／御新香［おしんこ］
- pickled vegetables, pickles

御 - honorific 'o'
新 - new
香 - incense, smell, perfume

Weird! Tinanong ko si Matsumura kung bakit pero di rin niya alam at nawiwirduhan din siya. :))

childhood shows :D

2010-12-03T00:49:00.002+09:00

Grabe di ako makatulog kakaisip sa cartoons na pinalabas nung bata pa ako. :)) Pauso kasi yung facebook e. Nung una nga ayoko pa magpalit ng profile pic pero di ko maresist!

Nahirapan ako pumili, dami ko gusto! :)) Nauwi ako kay Lime ng Saber Marionette J. Ang kyot kyot niya kasi! Madami akong gustong palabas pero isa siya sa gusto kong characters. :)

Ang saya magtingin ng profile pictures ng ibang tao. Sayang may pasok bukas. Pag-uwi ko bukas iisa-isahin ko tignan lahat ng friends ko. Tas gagawa ako ng listahan ng mga gusto kong panoorin ulit! Kasi naman super fail ng memory ko. Di ko na matandaan yung mga details. T_T Super gusto ko manood ulit! :D

di pa rin maka-get over

2010-12-01T22:19:00.003+09:00

Kakatapos ko lang basahin (ulit) ang Deathly Hallows last Wednesday. At nung Sunday before that, pinanood namin yung part 1 ng movie. Alam ko na yung mga mangyayari pero nag-break pa rin yung heart ko sa scene ni Dobby. </3 At naiyak pa rin ako nung nabasa ko ulit yung scene na yun kinabukasan (or was it two days after?). And to think that it was already my third (or was it fourth?) time to read the book! I've already lost count of the number of times I've read the previous ones. :P

I don't think I'll ever get tired of reading this series. :) Kahit ilang beses ko siyang basahin, napapa-smile at napapaiyak pa rin ako. At lagi kong ayaw matapos magbasa. Hahaha. Lalo ko na tuloy gusto pumunta sa Harry Potter World themed park!

So anyway, dahil dyan may nadagdag sa to-read list ko na sobrang haba na dahil sa onting oras na pwede akong magbasa e binasa ko pa ulit yung HP mula simula. :)) I want the three supplementary books to the HP series: Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them, Quidditch Through the Ages, and The Tales of Beedle the Bard. May onting part na akong nabasa pero gusto ko yung booooks! Kailan kaya ako magkakaron ng time para mabili at mabasa to?

uwing-uwi nakoooo

2010-11-16T23:03:00.001+09:00

Grabe, uwing-uwi na talaga ako. Bakit ang tagal pa ng December 18???

Nakausap ko kanina si Sky sa phone at ang daldal na niya! Gusto ko na ulit siya makitaaaa! Tapos kakausapin ko siya ng madami kahit walang sense pinagsasasabi niya. :)) Tapos sana makapanood ako ng soccer game or practice ni Blythe. Waaaaaaah! Parang nanay na nalayo sa mga anak. Hihihi.

May Bon Chon chicken na sa Manila! Weeee! Sa singapore namin to natikman at heaven dude! Super worth it kahit mahal siya. Best chicken na natikman ko sa buong buhay ko! At hindi ako nag-eexaggerate niyan ha. Kaya naman excited nako makipagbonding sa aking kapatids para kumain dun. :D

At natatamad nako magtrabaho ganitong malapit nako umuwi. :))

Pero bago ang lahat, kailangan mabili ko na ang mga dapat kong bilhin at maipadala ang kahon para umabot ng Pasko. At speaking of mga dapat bilhin, bumili ako ng napakaraming concealer kahapon. O_O It's supposed to be popular there, or at least it is among ate's friends and acquiantances. So ayun pinabili niya ako para bebentahan niya sila. At kumikitang kabuhayan siya ha, sana ambunan niya ako ng salapi sa kikitain niya. >:D Hahahaha!

look i'm wearing suit!

2010-11-13T00:35:00.010+09:00

This is my first (and unfortunately not the last) time to wear a suit.

parang supervisor na ewan :))

There I was, minding my own business when my boss went to my place (and scared the hell out of me) to tell me that I would have to work at the client's place and that I should wear a suit. Hello?? Wala akong ginagawa at hindi ko pa nga naiintindihan yung project tapos pupunta ako dun? AT naka-suit? Waaaah! Super panic attack! Mangiyak-ngiyak nako. Huhuhuhu.

It was my first (and unfortunately not the last) day to work at the client's place today (technically yesterday). And I can't believe that I'm saying this but I miss our office. :(

The reasons why I didn't enjoy my first day:
1. It's sooooo far. It's about an hour by train and more than 10 minutes from the station. Compared to our office which is just 10 minutes by monorail and five minutes from the station.
2. The dress code and I have to wear heels! I was not born to wear heels. :( Plus I have to walk that long, slightly sloping road from the station to the office and need to climb the stairs all the way to the fourth floor.
3. The office is so huge and there's so many people. It wouldn't be so bad if my desk were near the door but it's almost at the back of the office. So it's another long walk for me. And it seems longer because I have to pass all those people, not that they're looking at me.
4. I didn't have my own security card so I couldn't go in or out as I please. So for the whole day, I had to be with my officemate (and incidentally my landlord). :| Which included his daily walk to the park after lunch to sleep when all I wanted was to go back to my seat and rest my poor, tortured feet.
5. I can't surf the internet and was told not to use my phone too much. What am I supposed to do when I finish my task??

I will be working there until the 24th with the possibility to be extended but hoping it will be shortened. At least I now have my own security card so I don't need to bother anyone anymore when I need to go to the toilet.

I met with ate Len, ate Sheen, Shie, and kuya M after work. I was really lucky today, the train was 30 minutes late. :| But very grateful for kuya M's Jollibee burger yum pasalubong. And the McDonald's twister fries! Good job! :D

THE twister fries - imported from the Philippines :P

we're lovin' it!

the delivery boy (sakto pa sa damit haha)

It's park day tomorrow (later). It's a long walk but at least I won't be walking in heels. :)

love

2010-11-09T16:01:00.005+09:00

my heart just skipped a beat. she called me "love". after more than five years she called me "love". we haven't really talked that much since that fateful incident in high school. and in those few occasions that we did, i can't recall her calling me that. i might have tried once or twice but i can't remember what happened next. well, i can't really trust my memory. anyway, it brought back memories. and i just hope that this would be the start of something good.

i'm bored out of my wits

2010-11-09T11:28:00.005+09:00

I barely have anything to do in the office these days. In addition to weekly reports, we have to report daily too and I don't have anything to write in them! So I'm reading documents just to have something worthwhile to do. But it always makes me sleepy looking at those Chinese characters-filled pages (it would still make me sleepy even if it's written in English or Filipino. I just don't like reading documents :( ). I can't even remember what I read the past few days! I seriously need to study Nihongo again. >_<

I don't even know if these are the stuff that I need to read. -_-; They should at least give me a reading list or something. I feel that I would be more productive doing my Christmas shopping or cleaning my house or reading the books in my to-read list or planning my vacation or... Anyway, back to pretending that I understand what I'm reading. :|

McDo iCon Chicken burgers

2010-10-05T21:15:00.012+09:00

Umalis kami kaninang lunch para kunin yung bus ticket (sa Thursday na pala alis nakakatamad magpack!) namin sa ticketing office. At meron palang McDo na malapit dun. At may promo girl sa labas para sa iCon Chicken. At hindi siya yung German Sausage na binili namin last friday kaya nagpanic kami at tumawid agad ng kalsada para bumili! Hahahaha!

Ayon sa nabasa ko ang iCon Chicken burgers ay para i-advertise na masarap rin ang chicken sa McDo. Kasama pala sa effort na yun ang chicken burger at ang juicy chicken select. Actually pumatok sakin yung juice chicken select nila. Juicy talaga e! Grabe may time na apat na sunod-sunod na araw na kinain ko yun. :))

Nung nalaman namin yung tungkol sa iCon Chicken -- German Sausage, nag-plan kami agad na bibili kami sa first day na lumabas siya (last Friday). At merong free bag for the first 100 customers! Sabi ko nga aabsent ako para makuha yung bag. Hahahaha. Pero hindi ako umabsent at nakuha namin ang bag. :D

iCon Chicken -- Diavolo

At yung burger kanina ay yung Diavolo. Masarap siya ha! Kahit na medyo kulang sa anghang. Japanese anghang siya. :)) At nadiscover namin na preview pa lang pala to at magsisimula ang pagbenta sa Friday. There are four varieties. At ibebenta sila from October to November. Cheese Fondue (from October 8), German Sausage (around the end of October,) Diavolo (from the beginning of November), and Carbonara (from the middle of November). I'm gonna try all of these! :D

At kelan pa ko naadik sa McDo??

bought a lot of happy stuff today :D

2010-10-04T21:39:00.014+09:00

Dar and I both want a very cheap but super cute camera but don't want to spend for ourselves so we came up with this very brilliant idea. We'll exchange gifts this Christmas! Hahaha! I bought our new babies as soon as I got out of the office today.

look at those cute cameras! <3

And since it's already getting cold, I thought I should buy the chocolate drink that I love to keep me warm. :> So I went to a store that sells imported goods to buy Swiss Miss. But these happy foods came home with me!

I went into the store and got my Swiss Miss but then I saw that Ferrero was on sale so I got two of those. And I just miss the taste of ketchup flavored Pik-nik and the soury goodness of gummy worms so I also got those. Then I remembered that I've been craving for Loacker wafers. And on my way to the cash register I saw the m&m's crispy (I've been looking for this here in Japan!). That's how I got this bag full of yummy goodies. :) :)

I also bought this cream for muscle pain. My thighs are killing me! T_T I can't walk properly and I'm having a hard time sitting and standing up. I feel like an old lady already. Hahahaha. But it's not as effective as I thought it would be. I still want an Alaxan gel! But this would do for now. :)

tips on how to organize your life

2010-09-24T17:21:00.004+09:00

First, organize your house.

Second, manage your time wisely. Make time for stuff like organizing your house.

Then, hope that everything will fall in their proper places.

mikey

2010-09-11T23:44:00.016+09:00

Hello there roygbiv8. Namiss mo ba ko? Sorry I was either too busy or too lazy to blog these past few months. At ano namang sasabihin ko sa'yo kung forever lang ako nasa office diba? Buti nalang di na sobrang busy ngayon sa project. :)

Anyway I want you to meet Mikey my bikey.

Kailangan makilala mo na siya kasi dalawang beses na siyang nawala sakin. Huhuhu. Una nung Tuesday na sa maling lugar kami nagpark. Akala namin extension siya ng normal parking lot, yun pala monthly siya binabayaran. At pagbalik namin wala na yung bike namin. Akala ko talaga nawala na siya. :( Pero nakuha naman namin. :) Nilipat lang pala sila sa kabilang part ng parking lot. Buti nalang nahanap namin. :) Pangalawa nung Thursday. Na-impound sila. Huhuhu. Pero at least may idea kami kung anong nangyari sa kanya. Mas nakakalungkot yung una kasi di namin alam kung anong nangyari sa kanila. Pero kawawa naman si Mikey. Para siyang kinulong. :(

So kaninang umaga, sinundo na namin sila. Pero di namin alam kung saan kami pupunta. Hahaha. Buti nalang may map sa may station.

ang goal ay makapunta dun sa red mark

Pero dahil di namin alam kung paano pumunta dun by bus galing samin, bumaba nalang kami sa pinakamalapit na station at naglakad. Grabe, 1.6 kilometers yun. T_T Buti nalang I have Yuki at sinave kami (ulit) ng GPS niya. :) At pagkatapos ng mahabang lakaran sa ilalim ng matinding sikat ng araw ay nakarating din kami sa wakas sa storage area.

look at that sea of bike!
hundreds of them waiting for their owners to claim them. :(

Sabi nung isang manong pagdating namin, "待ってたよ." Pero di ko alam kung sino ang naghintay, kung sila ba o yung bisikleta. Siguro yung bisikleta kasi di naman kami close nung manong no?

shie's bike (pinangalanan niyang chopper pag-uwi namin)
and mikey waiting for us

reunited with mikey :D

Yay! :D Grabe, dami na niyang naging adventure ha. Haha. Grabe natuwa ako nung nakuha na namin sila ulit. :) Ayoko siya palitan e, kasi we're meant to be. Hihihi. :)

(pinilit maging) meant to be :P

food for the heart

2010-08-25T23:28:00.004+09:00

Salamat sa sweets at sweetness. Lalo na sa sulat. Made my ~~day~~ week. Thank you. :')

im going back to the start

2010-08-25T21:53:00.001+09:00

♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, Comin' in tails
Heads on a science apart ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪

a promise is a promise

2010-08-21T15:52:00.002+09:00

No matter how big or small it is.

How can you trust someone with the important things if you can't trust that person with something small?

You told me that "promise" is not just another word for you. And since then I learned not to break mine or not make one that I can't keep. It has become a word of faith, trust, and assurance for me. But now it's back to being just another word.

first time

2010-08-10T23:36:00.002+09:00

ever to receive a postcard and its from japan with love :)

sakto pa na absent ako sa work today dahil im sick again so nakuha ko agad :D

thanks eyt for the surprise 3d mickey postcard, super love it! :)

*ako na gumamit ng blog mo haha

playlist 8

2010-08-08T01:05:00.003+09:00

♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪

though you're not here for the kfest, i know you're my #1 fangirl haha

happy eyt day baby!

i love you! <3

playlist 7

2010-08-07T01:02:00.002+09:00

♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold Utopian dream ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪

playlist 6

2010-08-05T21:04:00.001+09:00

♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back
If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪

playlist 5

2010-08-04T14:49:00.002+09:00

♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪

playlist 4

2010-08-03T09:15:00.003+09:00

♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ One more song about moving along the highway
Can't say much of anything that's new
If I could only work this life out my way
I'd rather spend it being close to you ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪

playlist 3

2010-08-02T00:40:00.002+09:00

♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ Oh, we're standing on a tiny ledge
Before this goes over the edge
Gonna use my heart and not my head
and try to open up your eyes
This is relationship suicide
Cause if you go, I go
Cause if you go, I go ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪

playlist 2

2010-07-31T22:38:00.003+09:00

♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪

playlist 1

2010-07-30T23:52:00.002+09:00

♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ You think I'd leave your side baby
You know me better than that
You think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
I wouldn't do that ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪

tokyo disneyland :D

2010-06-30T21:26:00.003+09:00

We went to Tokyo Disneyland last Sunday (06.27).

We spent so many hours waiting in line, so little time to stroll and shop, the fireworks display was suspended (but we're eating our dinner that time so we would miss it anyway), AND we weren't able to meet Mickey! T_T So many things to do, so little time. Sigh. :(

On a positive note, our visit was still fun and it gave me reasons to visit again. SOON. On a weekday. ;) Someone come with me, please?

Anyway, Disneyland is still the happiest place on earth! <3 Can't wait to be there again! Oh, annual pass. If I could just have you, it would be the sweetest thing!

satruday is birthday extension day

2010-06-28T19:35:00.006+09:00

Last last Saturday (06.19) I received a birthday gift package. :) It contained books, little somethings inside the eight paper roses, drawings, and birthday haikus! Lovelovelovelove! <3

Last Saturday (06.26) I had another birthday meal. A birthday treat to me! Yay! :) And it was requested that I buy 1.) yummy mini cake, 2.) strawberry milkshake, and 3.) japanese street food. I'm not sure if takoyaki is street food, but it's yummy and I like it so let's consider it. Haha. I don't know where I could buy strawberry mikshake so I bought strawberry shortcake and milk tea to somehow grant the second request, but the "shake" part is still missing. I thought of shaking before eating to fulfill the "shake" part but I forgot everything when the food's already in front of me. :P Tum-tum was veeeerry happy. :D

I also got my birthday gift to myself last Saturday. :) Wee! This is my best birthday so far. Maybe because I'm away and did not really expect anything. But still, it's the best. :) <3

summer solstice

2010-06-21T19:48:00.001+09:00

Today is the time of the year when day is longer-est than night.

How ironic.

i love wednesdays

2010-06-16T19:56:00.003+09:00

not as much as i love fridays, but i love wednesdays. :) because wednesday means it's already halfway through the week. :D

excited??

2010-06-15T13:13:00.002+09:00

yes!!! super excited! excited nakong mag-Disneyland! :D :D :D

naisip ko lang bigla. yun lang. bye!

birthday post

2010-06-12T20:25:00.009+09:00

2NE1 na ko! Yay!

Hmm.. Nung nagising ako medyo ilang sandali ang lumipas bago ko narealize na birthday ko pala. Haha. Ang plan ko lang naman para sa araw na yun ay kumain ng takoyaki. At natupad naman siya kaya okay nako. :) Mas naging fun pa siya kasi umulan at wala kaming masilungan kaya naman umupo lang kami sa isang tabi sa train station at doon kumain. Pinagtitinginan kami ng mga taong dumadaan pero e ano naman? I'm eating takoyaki on my birthday, so why would I care. :D

At after ng takoyaki, kumain kaming ice cream sa Baskin and Robbins. And mahal. T_T Pero okay lang dahil masarap naman, plus may promo sila at meron kaming free scoop! Yay! :D At tinapos ko ang araw ng pagkain ng pancit canton for long life! Haha. Sabi kasi ni Tiny, Dar, at Lotus kumain ako. Inihabol ko pa siya bago mag 12 midnight. Hahaha!

At ibinili sakin ni ate Arlene yung gusto kong sapatos sa Gap. Yay! Actually, ako ang bumili pero babayaran nalang daw niya ako. Hehe. But it's the thought that counts. Really. Dahil di ko naman talaga ineexpect na bibilhin niya yun, tinry ko lang hingin kasi di ko mabili dahil nagkukuripot ako sa sarili. :P Ang dapat na hihingin ko talaga sa kanya nung tinanong niya ako ay yung Moniegold na sampalok candy. Buti naalala ko yung shoes. Haha. Wala naman kasi talaga akong gusto for my birthday. Takoyaki lang masaya nako. :)

Anyway, sana maging mas makabuluhan tong taon na to. :)

meteor garden

2010-06-11T08:50:00.008+09:00

Sobrang namamangha ako kung saan napapadpad yung mga naiisip natin (o ako lang yun?).

Kanina kasi habang nasa tren, naisip ko kung paano ba yun pinapaandar at pinapahinto. Tapos naalala ko yung mga palabas na sa tren yung eksena tapos kailangan nilang pahintuin kaya hahanapin nila yung lever ng break. Tapos naisip ko, ganun pa rin kaya ang itsura ng break? Tapos naisip ko na may lever din sa eroplano pag pinapaandar. Tapos naisip ko yung tunog ng eroplano, na hindi siya kasing ingay ng helicopter. Tapos naisip ko na siguro maingay kapag malapit ka sa runway kapag may lilipad o may maglalanding. Tapos naalala ko yung scene ni Shan Cai habang tinitignan yung eroplano na sinakyan ni Lei ata yun. Tapos naisip ko na gusto ko ulit panoorin yung Meteor Garden. Tapos naisip ko na ang layo na ng narating ko kakaisip.

:)) Ayan. Nakakamangha diba? :D O ako lang ang ganyan? Weird.

an attempt at haiku

2010-06-09T12:47:00.001+09:00

and then there was light
like the sun after the rain
our love shining through

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1/19/10 10:47 AM
forever nang nakadraft to, ngayon ko lang napost. haha. naisip ko to habang nasa office. :P naalala ko dahil sa haiku ng isa diyan. :)

mga larawan ng kahapon

2010-06-09T08:48:00.000+09:00

Literal na mga larawan ng kahapon. :D

exhibit A: pet manok ni Sky

Nagulat ako nung pinost to ni kuya Noel sa facebook. Nung una ko tong nakita sa skype, sisiw palang siya. Nagulat ako dahil buhay pa siya! Nasurvive niya ang mga aksidenteng laglag, sabong with toy sisiw, (sapilitang) play dead, pagiging biktima sa hit-and-run "accidents" ng toy cars, at ang paglagay sa kanya sa ref. Grabe ang tatag niya ha. Akala ko talaga magsu-suicide na siya nung gabing yun. At nalaman ko kahapon na nilalagay niya sa box at gusto niya ulo lang lalabas. At pinalagyan niya ng tali at namasyal sila sa kalye. O_O Kawawang nilalang. Pero alam ko namang love siya ni Sky. Sana maging masaya siya at alagaan siyang mabuti ni Sky. :)

exhibit B: doodles sa bagong white board

Ang paghahanap ko ng whiteboard ay nagbunga na. Sa hyaku-en shop sa tuktok ng daiei na malapit samin ko lang pala siya makikita. :) Matagal ko nang gusto ng whiteboard kaso nakalimutan ko na siya. :)) Naalala ko lang nung ginagawa ko yung photo wall ko. At kagabi pag-uwi, habang naghihintay ay naisipan kong mag-doodle (excited gamitin?). Ayan ay dulot ng walang magawa. At ng love. <3 Hihihi. :">

haiku #1

2010-06-08T21:30:00.005+09:00

morning breeze whispers
warmth of your body, heartbeat
incomparable

happy happy eyt day! <3 <3 <3

i love you! :)

makikipost ulit ako haha